Tuesday, December 28, 2010

there was nothing quite like it...

my sweet baby girl will be six weeks in two days...i can't believe it!!! its true when they say time flies! i didn't doubt it though. i can't believe she will be six weeks and i am just now doing a post about her birth! then again, looking at my track record, i'm not the most consistent blogger there is. oh well...i have been completely consumed by my little one and i am completely IN LOVE with her. so, blogging can continue to take the back burner for now.
but i do want to share a little...
so, its no surprise to anyone who reads my blog or knows us that we had a little baby GIRL! Ella was born on November 18th at 1:19pm weighing 6 lbs and 14 ozs. i have to say my labor/delivery was pretty amazing. no pain, never felt a contraction. i was already 6 cm when i got to the hospital that morning and 90% effaced. i was originally going to share about her birth story but i think at this point, i'll skip all the details and just say her birth day was quite the experience and i know i'll never forget that day and everything that took place. it was such a great day...better than i ever expected! thankfully, my mother-in-law journaled the whole day of events and my sister was our "photographer," so we have everything well documented. one of the best parts was not knowing if we were having a boy or girl. there is nothing like having your first baby and being completely surprised of the gender. there is no other surprise like it! so worth the wait and i would do it all over again! i just remember the doctor holding her up and saying "its a girl!!!" and i was in complete shock! i thought for sure we were having a boy because that's what everyone would tell me so i just convinced myself of it. i just couldn't believe my baby was a GIRL!!! such a sweet sweet surprise!!! i remember they placed her on my chest wrapped in a towel right after, russ cut the cord and i just held her tight and thanked God for her. she was healthy, crying and absolutely beautiful! i remember thinking, "how did i deserve such a precious, perfect gift?" i don't, but God loves that much...He is good!
i am so thankful for my baby girl and love everything about her. i love her little smile she does in her sleep, her "big girl" stretches she always does when waking, her very inpatient cry when she is hungry and her little pouty face, her little leg rolls and chunky cheeks i want to squeeze all day and her little fuzz head. God created her perfect in His image...thank you God!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

one more day....

One more day until we meet our little babe! Russ and I are so excited...it feels like Christmas Eve right now! :)
I am 39 weeks and 5 days today. I had my doctor's appointment this morning and we decided the best thing to do is go in tomorrow and have the doctor break my water. This should happen around 9 am. I do not need to be induced because I am already dilated well. Hopefully, everything will go well and baby will soon join us to make a family of three!!!
I know I have posted this before but God has been so faithful throughout the whole process and we couldn't be more thankful for what He has done. We give Him all the glory.
To our sweet little one....we cannot wait to meet you and love on you and hold you tight! You are the one we have been waiting for and how worth the wait it will be!!!

Thursday, November 4, 2010

all over the place...

this is another random post...kind-of all over the place. kind-of how i'm feeling these days....

nesting has kicked in full gear (well, it has for awhile but as i'm slowly getting my house back its been crazy). not only have we been cleaning and finishing up the nursery, i have been baking a lot! and everything seems to have pumpkin in it. but russ doesn't mind.
a few weeks ago, i made this really good pumpkin roll which i think is on the back of the libby's canned pumpkin too.
it was good!

last night, i made some pumpkin cupcakes that looked too good to resist....and they were.

i saw these on a blog somewhere?? but they are also out of real simple magazine from last year.

along with the pumpkin theme, we carved our little pumpkin last weekend...

and roasted our pumpkin seeds which i now know i don't really care for roasted pumpkin seeds.

to totally change the subject, we had some maternity pictures taken (free of charge) by a good friend from greenwood. he had no clue that he would be taking pictures of us but i knew he was a good photographer and the area (asheville) was so pretty that i couldn't resist to ask him. i never was into the maternity pictures, really didn't want my big belly all over the place. but i think these turned out pretty good and still modest. it was so nice of him to do this for us!

i'm only going to post these two...that's enough

and lastly for this crazy post, here is a little peek of the nursery. its done for now but not completely done. i'm waiting for baby to get here so i can either add blue or pink and order some pictures i want. and also add curtains. these things will help give the room more color. the pictures aren't the best because of the poor lighting but this will do for now...

i know the little white dress makes the room look more "girly" but that is what both my dad and i were baptized in...very special!

time for some resting...this baby might come sooner than later......

Friday, October 29, 2010

this is that post....

so, for anyone who might read this little blog, yesterday i almost went off about my emotional/roll-coaster pregnancy self. i could have done a whole post just about that. well, this is it.
i am today 37 weeks and term. so thankful to have made it this far with this little one still content inside (hopefully will remain content). i keep envisioning the day i meet my baby face to face and hear the words, "its a ----"! after waiting this long, the excitement only grows stronger and the surprise so much more real. lately for me, it has been hard to take all this in and realize that soon, i will have my very own little one to hold and love and kiss and squeeze. sometimes, this still doesn't seem real to me. i feel like my mind has been consumed with so many other things (most of the time things that don't matter like wanting my house to be perfect and completely organized before baby comes)that the cycle begins and i get anxious and worried about construction not going right or not being done on time, or the fact that we don't have a washer/dryer hooked up at the moment or the nursery is not completely done and spotless. i seem to take it all out on russ and then give him a billion "to do" things only after he has worked all day everyday. yet, he comes home, looks at his "to do" and immediately starts working hard all over again just to make me happy. then it starts...the meltdown. what kind of person am i? why can't i just be satisfied? why can't i just enjoy this time with my husband, just the two of us before things change? then, i'm mad at myself and really dislike the kind of person i am at that moment.
as if that's not enough,then comes the flood of questions, thoughts and fears of becoming a new mother and all the responsibility that comes along. i pray that i will be a nurturing, loving, PATIENT, God-seeking parent that is pleasing in His sight. that i will do my very best to raise this little one to know fully the love of Christ and what was done on the cross. that this baby will grow to never know a day without Jesus as his/her Savior. i pray for this wisdom but at times feel so incapable of being that mother. yet, i know His grace is sufficient for even someone like me.
just the other night, i had russ read me some verses because all these thoughts were going through my mind. this one came up and i constantly remind myself of this truth...

do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
philippians 4:6-7

i can't help but think of how faithful God has been throughout this whole process. even through all my fears and doubts, he has remained faithful to me. to thinking i was definitely going to have a c-section due to baby being breeched at 34 weeks and praying that the baby would turn and now being term with baby head down (turned around 35 weeks). always wishing i had more faith...
i still do realize that yes, i could still have a c-section for whatever reason and that things might not go as planned but God has and continues to show Himself to me in His timing.
so for now, i will continue to wait and continue to pray for a grateful heart. i hope i can take in these last few weeks (if baby doesn't come any earlier)and just enjoy this time and the time i have with just my husband and me. i know this time is so precious and i hate that i haven't enjoyed it more. i need to slow down and appreciate whats going on (like the fact that we are able to do construction and even as i type, they are about to finish up the bathroom). i still get a little envious of moms-to-be who have it all done; the nursery complete, the house spic and span, everything organized, thank yous done, check-list finished and just waiting and relaxing....is there really such a thing??? does all that really matter??
i kind-of laugh thinking about that now...
i am so so very excited about meeting our little one soon. just the thought of holding my baby for the very first time and kissing those little cheeks and holding it close brings many great emotions. and just at the right time, my friend emailed me this video that i watched this morning. believe me when i say it was just what i needed to see. whether you're a mom, mom-to-be or desire to be one day, this video is awesome. a few tears were shed...
please watch...very encouraging

so, this video is huge on here but i really have no clue how to load it otherwise. oh well, it works...sorry so big!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

better than a babymoon

i always hear of parents-to-be going on a "baby-moon" and i told russ (probably sometime in my second trimester) that we should go on one. he really had no clue what i was talking about so i had to fill him in. he wasn't so sure about all of it but i was thinking of places we could go before baby comes. well....we have been so busy with house renovations, work and who knows what else that time has just been slipping away like crazy (whatever happened to september...and now almost november)???? anyway, all that to say, the "baby-moon" planning was looking pretty dim for us seeing how busy things were/are right now ( i know, sad...too busy to take a break from "life" before things forever change).
but, then we realized we could make a very special wedding up in asheville! we had to wait because i would be just over 36 weeks and we wanted to make sure my doctor thought it was alright. so, he gave the ok and off we went. perfect place and time of year to go before baby and we were so excited to see many of our greenwood friends! we had such a fun time. the bride/groom planned a whole weekend (thursday through sunday) of events and although it was pretty busy and hectic at times, it was well worth it. so, maybe not so much a baby-moon after all but we would have gone anyway just to take part in the wedding and see everyone. it was beautiful, the leaves were changing, the weather was great, the food was delish and the company was fabulous!

friday night in downtown asheville waiting to eat

fun group of friends

on saturday, we went to sky top apple orchard with everyone. we didn't pick any apples but russ and i did get a pumpkin that hopefully we will carve before halloween.
they had so many delicious looking apples...

and lots of pumpkins...

sunday was the big day...

my friend tia and i...we were just like family sitting in the second row...oops!

with the newlyweds

now we're back and here come all the emotions and feelings and melt-downs again...i have to keep reminding myself that i am normal, this is normal...just a part of the whole pregnancy thing. hopefully, construction will be done within next few days and i can have my house back! can't believe my baby will be here in a few short weeks. i am praying that this little one will wait until around my due date and not any earlier but then again, this is out of my control. what i really need to be praying is that i will remain thankful for what the Lord has done/is doing...i pray for a thankful heart at all times (this is for another post, another day).

"oh, give thanks to the Lord, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever"
Psalm 118:29

Monday, October 4, 2010

pregnancy highlights

i didn't think i would blog much on my pregnancy but i have seen some of these posts on different blogs and thought i would do one for the fun of it. why not...i'm already 33 weeks!! so, here goes:

how far
: 33 weeks and 3 days

size of baby: last week i had my first ultrasound since 18 weeks...baby weighed 4lbs and 3 ozs!

total weight gain/loss: lets just say no weight loss here...

maternity clothes: even these are not always comfortable...still loving workout/bum clothes...what i wear 99% of the time

: i usually just feel the baby move at night, when i'm lying still. baby moves like crazy during this time and i can't tell between kicks and punches/etc right now

sleep: only a few hours a night usually waking up feeling exhausted. really ready for some good sleep...might be too late for that :(

: reflux and my third trimester came hand-in-hand. tums is now my must have before i go to bed

what i miss: aerobics, sleeping on my stomach, being able to bend over normally and put my shoes/socks on

: ice, sweet tea

best moment this week
: we'll go back to last week when i had my u/s and saw my baby's face...seeing those chubby cheeks melts my heart already! and i'll add the two baby showers this past weekend given by wonderful family and friends....leaves me feeling so blessed

what i am looking forward to
: meeting my little one and knowing this little surprise (boy or girl) was well worth the wait!!!!

Monday, September 27, 2010

last of summer

meant to do a post last week to recap our weekend but never got around to it. can't believe summer is officially over and fall is here...you would never know it. although i am thankful for the rain. and i have already been burning my pumpkin spice candle...mostly because it smells like construction/sheetrock in our house these days.

anyway, russ and i went to the georgia/arkansas game two weekends ago and although i can't brag on the dawgs, i did get the picture i wanted...we were standing in the perfect little spot when they plopped UGA russ on the bushes/hedges so this is as close as we could get. i was satisfied. the game was worth it just to get my russ and bulldog russ :) so much for the dawgs this season....
oh well, no fair-weather fans here

russ...still the cutest mascot in the land

we also managed to squeeze in a 30th birthday celebration/baby shower in carrollton with family. had a lot of fun! so thankful for our families.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

can't get enough

WARNING: random post

of this...

ice cream

or this...

cookies of any sort

or these...

my sister brought these back from crumbs bake shop in NYC and they were so so good. only lasted 2 days.

Totally feeling out of control when it comes to sweets and anything chocolate. I am in my third trimester but still, completely out of control. What happened to eating all healthy foods for my baby?? not sure...
Yesterday, I did use my pregnancy excuse to get not one ice cream blizzard but two (one for afternoon snack and one for dessert)!! When Russ needed to go to Lowe's after dinner, I googled Diary Queen in that area, didn't find one so Sonic Blast it was...definitely needed to go to Lowe's with him. That is crazy but they were oh so good! Russ thought that I would share one of my blizzards. I thought about it but then realized I needed it all to myself. I am, after all, eating for two??? He had to get his own and I think he was glad he did :) At this point, he just wants to keep me happy so he willingly gave into me and my need for something sweet...twice! Gotta love a supportive husband!
Any momma's or momma's-to-be know what I'm going through?? Reassurance would be greatly appreciated (even though, yes, i know this is normal...to at least some degree) :) I still think its a little crazy!

just typing this post makes me want to go to the gym...better go get ready

Monday, September 13, 2010

surprised indeed

So, I wasn't sure how I was going to pull this one off....a surprise 30th party for Russ. He turned the big 3-0 the end of August and my mind was swirling for ways to surprise him. It was going to be hard because I knew he would think I was planning something so I had to throw him off. With the help of some close friends, my little surprise plan worked (not that his party was anything original, just a great time with friends).

Here he is on his lunch break on his actual birthday eating a "cookie cake" I put together for him to trick him into thinking that was his "birthday cake". He had told me the day before he didn't want me to make him a cake because we had had so many sweets in the house. He told me just to make him one when we celebrate with his family in a few weeks. I was glad he told me that because little did he know I already ordered a cake at Publix for the party!

Two days after his birthday was the big party. This was actually the day that worked best for many different reasons and helped to make it such a (tricky) surprise...he definitely wasn't expecting this. This was no genius/super creative surprise birthday planning...just what Russ thought was an outing to good ole Sticky Fingers with a few guys for some good food. When he walked to the back, there we were, twenty plus, excited, relieved (that he made it) and singing happy birthday to him!

Here he is walking into the room. He really is surprised, I promise...as surprised as he gets!!

singing happy birthday and watching his expressions

some of the guys

the whole gang minus a few

can't go wrong with a publix cake

pretending to blow out the candles that I left at home...oops!

Christ Community docs

party is all over...glad it turned out as planned

Thanks to everyone who helped make his 30th so special....and for keeping it a surprise!!:)